i thought i wanted to teach but student teaching has made me question that and everything else as well. nothing feels right anymore. maybe it's just this school or this teacher. all i know is that monday mornings feel like a dagger in my heart every time. and i have 7 more monday mornings to go.  All i can do now is hope that my heart is still somewhat intact in may.  sorry for the sadness.  this is where i am now.