don't read this

what i'm learning:
1.boundaries are one of the strangest gifts that we have been given. From the inside looking out all they do is hinder and restrict but from the outside looking in they protect and guard. i'm not one for boundaries for many reasons, but am learning the hard way that boundaries are what allow us to get so close to people without losing ourselves in them. people are meant to come and go. if they weren't then we wouldn't be able to move. life is fluid and so are people but boundaries are constant and must remain that way for our own sake.
2. there is such a thing as too much of a good thing. and it's not a great thing. it's the rarity of events, the uniqueness of situations that make them special and wearing them out causes them to lose their meaning and luster. there's a reason we don't walk around in prom dresses and tuxedos.
3. i carry stress and anxiety in my shoulders, or at least that's what my yoga instructor told me.
4. family trumps friends. always. not because they're better or closer to you, but because they share your blood, and that should be enough.
5. sean, i think you are an infj. seriously, check it out.
6. if i don't do the things i've always wanted to do now, they won't get done.
7. i caught a glimpse of the lord's compassion for the lost today and it literally took my breath away. i was praying to see the world through his eyes and i was overtaken by grief. i heard the screaming of the lost and alone and i saw the pain in the eyes of the dejected and hopeless and it killed me. i know that it would be impossible to live life in that state, seeing and hearing the cries of the lost, but i pray that i will never underestimate the value of a human being's soul.
8. life is much more fun when you quit looking around to see people's reaction to you and just be who you are. it's not about being right; it's about being. and i think that sometimes i'm so afraid of not being one hundred percent on, not being perfect, that i actually refuse to be anything at all and end up missing out on valuable opportunities.
9. rice crispies taste much better with honey.
10.

you shall above all things be glad and young

you shall above all things be glad and young
For if you're young,whatever life you wear

it will become you;and if you are glad
whatever's living will yourself become.
Girlboys may nothing more than boygirls need:
i can entirely her only love

whose any mystery makes every man's
flesh put space on;and his mind take off time

that you should ever think,may god forbid
and (in his mercy) your true lover spare:
for that way knowledge lies,the foetal grave
called progress,and negation's dead undoom.

I'd rather learn from one bird how to sing
than teach ten thousand stars how not to dance
-ee cummings