you know how some days, you just know it'll all work out? that eventually, at the end of it all, you will still be standing? I had that this weekend. and my reasons are threefold.
1. mom and pops were here, showering me with love and much needed items for which i do not have sufficient cash flow.
2. no work on saterdays. how glorious is that?! i mean, not work of any kind, is a necessary activity on saterdays. not tutoring, not homework, not mentoring, not anything that even rhymes with work.
3. i saw nora and the family this weekend, for a very limited time, but i got to hang with them nonetheless. elise, who is three, actually used the word "beneath." what a rock star, and drew, who just had his 6th birthday (indiana jones themed, of course) informed me that emporers are better than kings because they have more than one kingdom. and that praying mantises only eat live things (cool huh!) i love them all so very much...
oh, and 4 which i just remembered is that guero is coming up for my birthday!! and he didn't try to surprise me with it! that's doubleplusgood!
finished "water for elephants," but i'm still chewing on it in my head, good read. now i'm halfway through a "heartbreaking work," a third of the way through "girl, interuppted," and just started "3 cups of tea."
things are coming together, just like they always would. it seems so silly to me now that i worry about things, because worrying is one of the most unproductive things you can do... in every sense of the word. the trip to san diego is coming together, i'm back on track with classes, and most of my students are passing their classes. i know that i'm busy and i wouldn't mind slowing down, but everything i do is the best thing ever, and as draining as it all is, it's all so very real and close to my heart. I did turn down a mentoring job, which totally killed me (yeah mom, be impressed but i had to call when they were closed and leave a message so i wouldn't get suckered into doing it anyway) but i knew that one more thing on my plate and i wouldn't have the energy to enjoy or remember any of what i'm doing now.

just had the urge to erase all of this because i know that as soon as i post this, some crisis will occur and i will find myself upside down yet again wondering where it all went when it was all in my grasp the moment before, but i'll take it. this is where i am now, and His mercy is new every morning.

so tonight, i breathe in peace